The old me is back.

You know, the one who is an independent spirit and who knows how to take control of her life. I was looking at some old photos today, and wow, I'm quite a hottie. Haha. Despite my poor choice of clothes, middle-parting of hair, and basically terrible fashion in general, I could feel something. The girl in the photos wasn't someone who would settle for anything less the best. She was a smart girl. And a nice one too. I don't know what has happened to me in the last 2 years. Actually, I know. It's college. College has opened my eyes and realized that life isn't always pretty. But, I don't think I have dealt well with the problems college has brought upon me. I have let other things get in the way. Well, that stops here. I am going to become an independent person again. I will get in touch with God again. I know I am nothing without God.
I have been very unhappy ever since Spring 2010 begun. I had a good time in Taiwan Summer 2010, but I always felt like my group members didn't like me very much. I pretty much confirmed this this summer, which broke my heart, but wasn't surprising. It's something that had been haunting me for awhile (I mean, 6 people disliking you probably means there's something wrong with you, right?) but I have finally come to terms with it and have learned from my mistakes. Totally heartbreaking, but I learned a good lesson. My year in ATX was pretty much absolute hell. I'm sorry I can't substitute a better word for that to get my point across. My GPA sunk to such low levels that I couldn't help but freak out over it every single night, resulting in little sleep. I was deeply depressed. I was lonely and always out of money. Hopefully this year will be different.
I can't stop listening to Designer Drugs by the way. I'm into house/trance/dubstep again.
Unless necessary, you should never have to interact with people you dislike. This is something I have yet to learn. This year, I'm surrounding myself with people I like. I think it's something that would make me a lot happier.
I can't wait.