Hey everyone. Season 2 of GoT ends tomorrow, and I am so excited to see the finale. Of course, I am also sad that I will have to wait like probably half a year to see the next season. Oh well. Anyway, I have been extremely stressed lately, and I blame it on the fact that I am still unemployed and pretty much feel like a loser. I am 21 years old and never had a real job, or even an internship. I don't know where my life is going anymore. I don't want to call home because then my parents will ask me about my job-hunting stuff, and I hate disappointing them with my failures. I remember back in high school, I was sure God had a wonderful plan for my life, since that's what they tell you in Sunday school. I went to a summer bible camp, and my group leader questioned my belief that God had a plan for me. I remember being sort of angry that she would question me about something like this, and my life, although far from being perfect at that time, was not unsatisfactory. Now I understand what she was talking about. Once we go to college, everything changes. I have gained and lost confidence. I'm not so sure God has a great plan for my life anymore, and I know I can't just sit around and expect God to give me what I want.
I don't know what is going to happen in the future. I'm scared but there's nothing I can do about this uncertainty except to keep working hard and praying to God everynight.
In other news, I have started writing a novel. I call it "The Girls in Apt.#24", and I know it's such an unoriginal title and totally ripped off from another TV show, but it's a temp. name so I will change it. Writing is the only thing I can do anymore.
/Heavy Sigh.
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